Um. I know the last post was 50 random things about yourself, bold the five things you think stand out most, but, alas, I have low self-esteem and can't find anything interesting about myself, and I can't even find 50 things to finish teh damn list.

Anyways! Green Day was awesome in concert. Their a great live band, like Breaking Benjamin, Staind and 3 Doors down. I thought the concert was going to be dull, just like any other concert I've been to, but Billy Joe made it fun, entertaining, and even perverted. (Despite there being little kids around, Hee hee). He would have us shout back and forth to him. "Woooah!" "Woooah!", You know, shit like that. While doing that, he started moaning into the mic, and everyone's DYING of laughter, and it looks like he starts jacking off on stage, then he yells: "SOMEBODY FUCK MEEH!!" XD;; Holy shit, I died.

Then, they called three people on stage. A drummer, A bassist, and a Guitarist. The drummer got to play Tres Cool's part, the Bassist Mike Dirnst's part, and the Guitarist Billy's part. Well, when all was said and done, the drummer got to do a stage dive. Fricken sweet. The guitarist was a ten year old boy who could actually play, and he got to keep the guitar. THe bassist who was a huge attention whore smashed Mike's bass that he was going to get, and, he got thrown out. Peices of the bass were on stage still.

They also played older songs, Like "We are the Champions", and "Shout." Very entertaining show, very interactive. Mike Dirnst is amazing, Billy Joe is friendly and perverted, and Tres Cool is hilarious.

Needless to say, thats got to be the best concert I've been to. Oh, And they deticated Holiday to George Fucking bush. Hee hee. I enjoyed that lotses.

Anyways! Uh...Been fighting with Lucas a bit more than usual. I swear if he disses me like that one more time his ass is mine.

1) My favorite part about myself is my eyes. D=
2) I hate myself for the most part. I seriously bicker within myself and beat myself down all the time. get used to it.
3) I'm truely goth at heart...and...yeah, You all should know me by now.
4) I care too much, and thats my weakness.
5) I don't cry on the outside anymore. If I do, its a rarity. If I do it infront of people, then wholy cow..
6) I've given up on giving up slowly.
7) I flirt with my crush everyday, and no one knows I'm crushing on him. No one, and It will stay that way.
8.) The person I care about the most, I hate the most.
9) I am kickass at DDR. I play it on heavy and standard when I get the chance.
10 ) I am learning Bass guitar. Trying, anyways
11) I hate the sound of my voice
12) I don't see myself as having any talents
13 ) I realize I put myself down 99.9% of the time. I've never complimented myself infront of people before, and If I have I probably don't like them very much.

14)...I can't finish this list.

I've given up on giving up slowly
I'm blending in so you won't even know me....

Maybe if I do that, No one will miss me.

'Cause I've been housing all this doubt, and Insecurity
An' I've been locked  inside that house, all the while you hold the key.

And your not going to let me out, Are you? I can see it shinning in your eyes.

And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape...

But you won't.

I've given up, I'm doing this alone now.

And I always have been.

You showed me the way and now I'm trying to get there.

Or atleast you thought you did.

You see that? Thats whats running through this sick little head of mine. I wish someone would lie to me and convince me that I'm sick, that I've been this way forever. But I know its not true. I had a friend that wanted to hang out with me for being me, not...entertainment, not somewhere to go when I'm sick of my house...Someone who said "Hey, I enjoy your company. Come over." I want Miya back so much, after she left so many things have gone wrong. My grades went to hell, I changed. I didn't want to change, after Miya left I got a boyfriend and I changed for the worse. I didn't like that.

Kiya and I got to talking earlier and it got me thinking. About how she hurt herself and how Kenzo yelled at her until she listened. I think I'm just so attention hungry that I want to just cry 'wolf', and go find something sharp to stab into my arms or legs. Just watch my blood flow from a self-inflicted wound on my body...How wonderful it must be to not feel guilty for doing something like that. Kiya, I envy you... I envy you for how many people love you, how many people would sacrafice something so that you won't be hurt...How...How much I love you and how much I hate myself....

I am my own worst enemy, 'cause every now and then I kick the living shit out of me.

HI! ^_^ I'm posting again, yes.

I"m sitting here at teh computer, watching Sasamich try her hardest to beat DDR. ^_^; She's thinking about giving up but I won't let her >>;; Because, she can do it. ^_^;; -waves pom-poms-

Well, dad's stealing computer x_x;; Jaa.

Yeah, Kenzo updated so I thought I better, too ^^;;...even though he did it to save his ass from behing shot and killed...by meh. Heh heh, The love. XD

Went to guitar center Today, and OMG I thought I was going to DIE!!

._.;;; The basses...The basses were sooo pretty! The amps...Ahhh......-babbly drool-

(Random Passerbyer: -slips and falls- )

-snaps out of daze- ANYWAYS! I got me a Metallica book. Kiya, Alex and I can now pall One together. Heh, Only I don't play for a minute and fourty six secons x-x

w/e, I'm going over to Sasamich's house today. Me an' her haven't hung out in a while...y'know, just me and her. So, thats what we're gonna do ^_^;;

I'll be gone 'till like five or six meh time, but, meh. I'll talk to you all later. Luffs!!

Winry the bass fanatic, Signing out!

PS: I'm redoing my layout. Rei from Evangellion this time. peace.

I'm...Hi! o_o;;

I'm alive, weather or not you knew that I don't know, I don't care, but I'm alive and actually enjoying life and living at the moment, which is better than what I'm usually feeling.

Went to Taks the other day because they called me numerous times. And, right when I got there I had an accident and now I've got this bruise on the back of my leg that hurts beyond all hell.

Then, I had read Sasami's Journal, and I wanted to go give her a hug. So I dragged Kiya and Tak along and we gave her a hug. I fell/crawled down her stairs to help Thomas find Word, but, I failed at that hyserically. XD; I fudged around with the old aquostic Guitar in her room, then we went back upstairs. Me and Kiya kept talking about jumping from her second story, and she yelled at us because blood is hard to get off the carpet XD;;

Um. At her house I saw this amazing FMA AMV (That sounds funny XD) And, I wanted it more-so for the song than anything. Something DREW me to that song, and I'm not surprised. The lyrics...aside from being slightly sadistic/morbid, and in french. So happy I chose french for my language.

Oh, Speaking of French, Natalie's in my class. Feel sorry for that teacher. And Me, Natalie Hannah and bri are in the same Band. Then Me and Kiya are in the same science class. Buahaha.

Anyways, about the song. I'm thinking about making a layout for it. Yay or nay?  I think I will since this Truth layout flopped beyond all hell. And besides, this layout only makes me happy when I'm ticked at Kiya for some stupid-cracked reason.

I'm hungry, And I want pizza rolls. I think after I make this post I shalt go forth and make me some!

Now Im just being random. Goddamn I Am hungry!!

Okay, shortening up this post..um...what else.

Going camping with Amber's family Friday Morning. Dunno when I will be back. Then we're going to go horseback riding sometime after that, because she said we could go together Sunday but she was in Kentucky. D=. Oh well, Horseback riding for us is like, Major bonding time. We've talked more horseback riding then we ever have on the phone. Well, when her aunt comes we don't talk freely, because, well, its her aunt. On trail rides I'd feel safer if we had an Adult with us, but I did fairly good last time with just Amber. Ginger likes me. I think. Aside from when I tried to take her out of the pasture and when she broke out of her halter x_x;; In the pasture she literally GALLOPED away from me, and I just stood there when I heard the rest of the herd follow her. BIG gelding charged at me, and I screamed. Amber laughed at me, then rode up on Doc bareback. That was funny. I was whinning. "GINGER! T_T Don't you love me!?" I guess the answer is no.

Wow. Long happy post. Thats Rare.

Then, I have to hang out with Natalie. She's still in crutches after her surgery, and I have to play her songs on meh Bass. Too bad Hannah's already their bassist, and too bad they already have a band, Because we need a drummer. Sasami said she's learning, but she needs to learn FAST. we need to get practicing and stuff if we want to actually become famous ._.;;; Oooooy. Vay. Yeah.

I think I should be done now. Should I? Yes I should.

Alphonse Elric is a real boy, Signing out!

XD;

`~-Winry-~`

Well, I haven't posted in a long time. Saterday - Wednesday I was up north, and that was plenty of family time for me. So I got on the computer for a little bit.

Thursday I went to Valley Fair with Wes, Kiya and my Mom. That was really fun. On Power Tower and Wild thing and any other ride that went high and fast we would race our spit down. Wes hit Kiya twice, Kiya almost hit herself -We saw the spit fly inbetween her legs- and I hit myself. Wes was a pimp, with me and Kiya walking around in bathing suit tops. So that was really fun, lots of laughs. The lines weren't bad either.

Friday was the party at Wes's house. That was fun too. Aside from the fact that Tak kept -verbally- kicking me and Kiya into the mud and laughing at us. "Now I don't have to look at you and be envyous! HA!" Those words echo in my head, and they hurt. Really bad. To the point I wanted to just hug the nearest hot guy -coughauriliocough- or have someone be nice to me. Wes was nice though, considering he has a girlfriend that was there. He gave me a flower, and Leah didn't care. She was right there when he gave it to me, so it was cool. He said I looked like I was going to throw up so, yeah. Anyways, that was the kindest thing anyone did for me that night. Then after all that, we were watching the Roast of Pamela Anderson. Tak was cuddling up to Patrick, and I was sitting next to them. She put her face right in mine and said "HA!". I turned away from her and just looked at the floor. After a while I felt odd so I moved onto the floor, laying down with my eyes closed. Before I left I had a VERY perverted talk with Peter an' them all. It was so much fun. I want to hang out with them some other time. Peter was semi-sorta nice to me during the party, too. Damn, I wish Kenzo lived here.

Thats it for an update now. I'm going to go fix the top thingy. Later!

Well, I'm in a fairly, very good mood ^_^ Aside from the poofy hair, I'm good x-x. Me and Kiya played with Guitars yesterday. Dad and I argued about playing the bass, and I said I did not care that it was boring, I just wanted to be different. Then we had a fight about our socks. Kiya found that hilarious, and we have to find that tape of us playing Halo. I swear, I haven't sounded that smart in a while XD; Thats sarcasm, folks. I've eaten nothing but poppy seed bread for the past 24 hours. Is that good, or bad? I'd like to know XD Anyways, thats pretty much it. Um...XD; I'm also wondering how many people read this. thing. That I call a journal. XD;; Right then. Um...Nothing else to say, just milking time.

Heh heh, I'm actually in a decent mood. I think Yes, Why Yes I am. Stayed up late drawing and talking to Kenzo. THe roleplay we're doing got REALLY interesting, so that was fun. We played checkers last night, too. Three times. He won once, I won once, and the last one we called a draw <33 It was so fun. I drew a picture of one of my oldest 2nd Generation characters, Aerie, Daughter of Sei and Gate. Whee, thats so fun. She's cute as hell, too. XD; But yeah, Anyways. Thats whats pretty much up. Oh, Yesterday was the Miyakai's Birthday. Everyone go to her jounal and wish her a belated birthday. <3 SHe took a picture of my food for me XD I was there spiritually. But I accidently ate her Corndog, so she wasn't happy. XD; But yeah, <3 we talked on the phone, and stuff. That was fun.

Alrighty, well Kiya's coming over and I wanna get started on my picture of Kurenai, so I'm-a-gonna go...do stuff...<33

~loves~

-Kaykuyo-